Try...REALLY!!

I had an adjustment yesterday, so my back and arm are more painful then usual, that's how the doc said it would work and man was he right. I also have a dentist appointment today. I'm supposed to go to dinner at my Pop's house...but it's his night to cook...which means boxed dinners...blick. And I still haven't spoken to my sister that acted like a jackass on Saturday and screwed the whole morning up before we got it back on track...and she'll be there...either still being a bitch...or acting like nothing ever happened. So to say that I am not looking forward to tonight is an understatement. It means over an hour travel round trip. It means I can't take my meds till later as I won't take them and then drive. Would I be a terrible person if I called in "sick"? I really don't know if I can handle it with a smile. I just want to cry at the thought!

Fun times....

One of my big sisters was in town this past weekend. Her daughters were working a fundraiser for thier mission trip this summer...so she and I did some running around. It was supposed to be three of us...but her twin was being a little douchey...so we dumped her and had a beer (which the few sips I had gave me a real buzz combined with my meds) quickly checked out the local Art Festival and moved on. Had SO much fun together. She's about 2 hours south of me...and I just don't see enough of her. Which is a total shame as she is one of the coolest people. I really enjoy being with her. It's easy and hilarious. She got me hooked on grilled cheese with tomato and bacon and I'm eating my third one since then right now. It was supposed to be few hours of errrands and I ended up being gone for the entire day. But it was great and I'm glad I didn't miss a minute of it. Danielle you rock!! Thanks for making a chore a joy! I love and appreciate you more than you know.

Pathetic...

That's me! So I went to the doctor's in the morning then worked all day. Got home and was exhausted. I had gagged down a small soup at lunch, but the meds make me not hungry at all. So Jimmy asks me if I got the dog food I had said I would pick up on my way home, and I had not. Totally forgot. So I say that I'll head there now and he says he'll do it. So I sit down on the couch and the next thing I have a vague recollection of is James telling me he got a stripe in karate (and me not reacting the way the poor kid needed me to!) and Jimmy asking me if I wanted to take my sweater off. Next time I'm "awake" I'm in bed, fully clothed and Jimmy is getting set up on the couch. Which means that I'm snoring like a bear again. So I get up and go and convince him to get back in bed. I take my meds, which did not want to stay down on an empty stomach and sit down to watch "Home Clean Is Your House", one of my favorite British shows that I DVR. The ladies on there are hillarious. I watch two and then head back to bed. Still feel like I'm in a semi-fog today. Not quite right. I still haven't shown James any true excitement over his karate stripe. Have to make sure I do that when I pick him up at Mom's tonight. Poor thing was so excited and I must have disappointed him. I hate taking medication and not feeling like myself. I hope the doctor can set me right soon. Pain and fog and exhaustion about sum of my last month. I'm more than ready to move on to normal and energized, thank you very much.

Warranty expired...

Isn't that how it works? Your warranty expires and then everything starts falling off or apart. ::raises hand:: I'm there! First this whole eye fiasco that I am still "battling" coming up on a year and it's going beyond that. Till November. 1 year and 4 months of doctors and drops and pills and pictures and on and on. And now my back is whacked. Finally got to see the chiropractor after a month of fighting my primary doctor's office. Had Xrays done and really like the new doc...but he told me that I have a degenerative vertabrae. Doesn't sound good to me! Degenerative...as in continuing to degenerate. More and more over time. And it's got a spur. Oh joy. The fun just keeps on coming. When this all started, it was like a HUGE knot in my left shoulder that was extremely painful. After a couple of days the pain spread into my left arm to about the elbow. Going numb and tingling as well. That continued to get worse each day. So I am in tears two nights ago and Jimmy asks me where it hurts. So I put his fingers on the exact spot and he digs in. Not gently. Not a soft massage, but gets in there. And then I woke up the next day and the back issue is the same, but the pain in my arm was gone. Lovely. So yesterday and this morning it was much, much better. The valium/darvacet cocktail actually took the pain away and I felt psuedo normal. So I get my first electro-shock treatment at the doctor's office and an adjustment. And now the pain is back in my arm. It's like the treatment set me back to before Jimmy helped me. I think he had unpinched something and it's pinched again. I go again on Friday. But I might have to go through hell again and let him try again and see if I can relieve the arm ache/pain till Friday's appointment and mention to the doctor what happened. Not sure if it's part of the process...but if it is...it's a bad part and I don't like it. Feel like I have to hug my arm to me or lift it above my head or it is on fire and numb. Like it feel asleep and I can't get it to wake up. Ah hell...I just want to feel good again.

Of course Jimmy asked me if I'm allowed to get back in the gym. But when the doctor said degenerative (especially since my Mimi had three back surgeries in her life for issues such as this) I kind of went into panic mode and didn't think to ask him any questions. So Friday when I go back I'll ask him about that. If I can at least do the cardio eliptical part, even if the weight lifting isn't okay. Or maybe just not back/shoulder but everything else. Or maybe it will be a good thing. Keep me loose and strong. We'll see what he says. I just know it's another doctor bill and more appointments and for the moment PAIN!! ARRGGHH.

Girlie time...

Can't wait for tomorrow. My Mom and one of my sisters and I are driving down to another sister's house to see her new pad and have lunch and then shop and be girlie. I so miss that. My two BFs live in Maryland so I only see them one weekend each year. Our Fall Funk Fest...and I live for it. This year it might be postponed till March and be more of a Spring Chicken Fest. But it is still too little time to spend with my ladies. So going with my family girlies is so fun. Used to do this all the time when we all lived in Illinois. Head out to lunch and shopping and laughing and being silly. I can't even remember the last time we did it...has to be over 5 years since it would have been before we moved down here. And my three still in Illinois sisters are not going to be there...so it's a little bitter sweet. But I am still giddy about it and can't wait! However, DH needs to stop being so damn happy about his "free" day (no me or James). He jokingly told my sister to make up her spare bedroom and I would head down on Friday instead of leaving early on Saturday...the brat!

Sea World...

ROCKS!! We had the best time. It was the coldest day of the year and they closed all the roller coasters because the wind was so bad. But it was so much fun. I got to feed a sting ray and it was awesome. Nothing like it. We saw the Shamu show and his one splash crested right on our heads, drenching us. I won James two prizes at the carnival game area. He was a little trooper and never complained about being tired or a wait being too long or us not going on something because of the wait. He was an absolute dream. I was a little freaked out walking on the glass aquarium...felt like I would going crashing through. It was a lovely day and I wouldn't change one single thing about it (except the wind!). Now I have Busch Gardens to look forward to in June between my and James' birthdays. Yipee. So fun.

::clears throat::

Tomorrow...tomorrow...I go to Sea World...tomorrow...it's only a daaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa wwwwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!

::bows head::
please God let the pain in my back go away so I can enjoy our day
Amen

Can't wait...

Four more days...FOUR!!

So much fun...

Stuff coming up!! Next Tuesday, during James' Spring Break, we are going to Sea World. I think Jimmy and I are as excited or more excited then James. We can't wait. I have never been and am not a huge roller coaster fan, so I'm excited for the animal shows and feeding the animals and all that sort of adventure. They have a roller coaster so Jimmy can get his fix. It's going to be an amazing day. I can't wait. Five more days...FIVE!! Then I get to be a kid again and play and have fun and not think about anything but Sea World and what I want to do next. I love days like that. Hopefully my car won't give us any trouble on the way to Orlando. She's been acting up and we haven't gotten her in to the mechanic....but I'm not going to think about that...I'm thinking about going to Sea World. Did I tell you I'm going to Sea World...in five days? Five days!

On a side note. This TTA thing has been kind of like sliding back into high school. DH is not very good at being told this is a bad time...and I think knowing that we can't fool around makes him want it more. He attacked me the other afternoon as I was getting in the shower! I told him that we should probably wait since he's not a condom fan...he couldn't. I was laughing. Luckily my TTA is not life or death...just recommended. Because he has no self control! And I love it.