Monday, March 30, 2009

Babies all around...

ME!! Between all the exciting news of the regular GP ladies. My cousin just announced that she is expecting her second. So exciting as well. Then there is the drama babies. My co-worker's 20 year old daughter is pregnant. She has a 18 month old with Daddy 1 and is now pregnant with Daddy 2. She just kicked him out for being immature, so she's going to raise two on her own. And then there is my bosses' 21 year old son, who is also a co-worker. He is currently on probation for drugs and announced that his girlfriend of several weeks is 10 weeks pregnant and he can't understand why her father isn't excited! Giggle's okay. This would be announced just days prior to the announcement that he failed a pee test for probation. Sounds like alot of "failed" pee tests in that situation. Insanity. This is the third pregnancy for this boy...two with his previous girlfriend. Both resulting in an ended pregnancy and now this one. I imagine that this one will go to term if that is God's will. Unbelievable. I guess since I won't be getting a BFP for awhile, everyone around me is going to get one instead! Blessings and drama...blessings and drama.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Living vicariously...

I am so excited for all the GP regulars who are coming up KU these past couple of weeks. It's a miracle in some cases and a blessing in all. All these BFPs and Mama Bumps popping up all the takes out some of the sting off TTA and allows me to live through the ladies for awhile and soak up their joy.

::dances around doing the baby butt shake...spins and starts over::

Monday, March 23, 2009


Jimmy and I had an amazing weekend together. James was gone till Sunday, and be both really missed him...but it was fun having that "us" time. Something very rare. And we thoroughly enjoyed it. Jimmy even lounged around in bed with me...UNHEARD of!! But it was fun and relaxing and I loved it. I was lazy almost all day Saturday (I HAD to go food shopping). We drove around all over our town and surrounding towns, going to parks and beaches and walking and enjoying the day and each other. It was perfect. He was perfect. We were perfect. I felt like a teenager with a new boyfriend...when it's all soft and wonderful. I was a bad girl and skipped church so we could have another lazy morning together. The dogs even cooperated and let me sleep in an hour longer than usual before doing the weekend whine. It was heaven...and I am blessed.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

It's official...

She's here! So it's CD1 of TTA Cycle #1. I have so many mixed feelings on this. Not sure where I sit at this particular minute, but it doesn't matter because I could totally about face in 5 minutes. I know it's the best thing. I know it's the right thing. I know it sucks. All wrapped up in a pretty ribbon. Now I have to figure I stop blogging for the next 9 months...or do I expand beyond TTC and welcome it into the rest of my life? Interesting.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Marching on...

So, as previously mentioned, I "needed" to get AF this month. So when I got that temp drop this morning to 96.7...and I know AF is right around the corner, it was a good thing...medically. But it still stings. So now....we TTA. Unbelievable. For six to nine months. UNBELIEVABLE. But I guess my vision is worth it. It's important to take care of myself so I can be the best person to care for our children, or so the GP girls tell me. But it still sucks. I don't have to like it. I've accepted it...but I refuse to like it! Sorry, two year old tantrum over. Happy face back on. Marching forward like a good little soldier.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009


So my cornea specialist wants me to put TTC on the back burner until August. He feels it is paramount that I go back on heavy duty steriods and he doesn't want the cycle interrupted if I were to get KU. So I have to stress through this cycle because I was trying, so if I am, I'm not sure where that puts me. It would be a huge hurdle and the worst possible timing ever. Not that I would not be thrilled, but it could really hurt me in the short and long term. August. AUGUST!!! Seriously? I turn 37 in June. But's in God's hands. And I trust him.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Oh the irony...

My family always told me that I was too picky when it came to men. But after surviving an abusive relationship in my early twenties...I had no desire to be with someone that wasn't "right". I wanted to be happy...if a relationship brought that wonderful, if not...I was doing fabulous alone. I put in almost 10 years never really getting serious with anyone. However, I was apparently a good luck charm for the men I dated. Of the 10 men I casually dated prior to Jimmy, 9 of them married the woman they met after me. The 10th passed away. Weird huh?

So, when I ran across made perfect sense to me. I now know that it may take some time, since my eggs are apparently just as picky as me. And I guess I just can't blame them!


We got a new Pastor at my church. I like him already. He told this joke during his sermon on Sunday and it made me chuckle, so I'm sharing it with you.

Jesus, Peter, Paul and Simon are a foursome on the greens, playing a round of golf. Jesus hits his ball and it soars through the air and lands smack in the water. So Jesus is walking across the water, looking underneath for his ball. Another foursome comes upon them and is shocked. It's not every day that you see a man walking on water at your local golf course. So one of the men turns to Peter and says, "Who does he think he is...Jesus Christ?" And Peter responds, "That's not the problem...he thinks he's Tiger Woods!"