Operation 2009

So I know that the doctor recommended that we wait a month for dating purposes and my mental well being. But I can't wrap my mind around waiting a month to make me feel better. Getting pregnant (and staying pregnant) will be the only thing that accomplishes that on this front. So I am going forward with our last 2009 pregnancy attempt. I should ovulate in the next day or two if history stands true. I have been jumping Jimmy every other day for the past week now. He's mighty happy and loving the end of the year :) Tonight we're up again. Then New Year's if I have not Oed as yet. Two nights ago I'm lighting all the candles and he gets up and starts pouring cereal. He asks me what I'm doing and I tell him that I had planned on seducing my man but he's too busy with his cereal. Luckily he made the right decision. So fingers crossed...and good luck to any other women sexing it up till the end of the year!!

Number 16...

So my little brother and his wife had thier first child. A little boy. Yesterday. I am so excited for him...really and truly I am!! I mean it...I really do :) I can't wait to meet the little booger.

umm...

I'm not even sure what to say. How to start. I guess I just say it. I had a miscarriage. My baby is gone. I was 4 weeks 5 days pregnant and I got to know it for 2 days. 2 days. I got to wake up one morning knowing that there was a baby there before there was no longer a baby there. I was going to tell Jimmy with a cute Knocked Up shirt I ordered forever ago. Instead I got to tell him while I was sweating and shaking on the bathroom floor. I guess I should say that Jimmy had left for work and I started cramping so bad it doubled me over. So I went to the bathroom, thinking I had to go to the bathroom. I sat there thinking I was going to die. I tried standing up and that was not successful so I fell to the ground. I started breaking out in a sweat and shaking. I didn't want to involve him, but I had no choice. So I started yelling out to James who was in watching t.v. waiting to leave for school. So I yelled a few times and he finally heard me. Came to the bedroom and asked me if I had called him. I asked him if he could bring me my phone. As I had sweat dripping off my face he asked me if I had just gotten out of the shower. I was trying to not upset or scare him so I said that I had and asked him again if he could bring me my phone. He asked me why I was sitting on the ground next to the toilet. I told him that I just needed a breather and could he bring me my phone. He asked me if I did that every time. I explained that it was just some times and could he bring me my phone please? So finally he runs to get it and then goes back to the t.v. I call Jimmy and ask him to come back. I tell him that I am sick and need him to take James to school. So he says he'll be back shortly.

I hear him come in but he's chatting with James. I'm screaming HONEY and nothing. I try getting up and I finally hear him coming into the bedroom. So here is the horrible moment I have to tell him that I got a positive pregnancy test, but I think I'm losing the baby. He lies me in bed and takes James to school. The rest of the day was doctor's appointments, internal ultrasounds, several locations to get blood work done. The one test, so they knew my blood type in case I hemorredged and required a blood transfusion was not done at all the offices.

Then I was supposed to get the second Beta test to see if it was a miscarriage or an eptopic pregnancy was supposed to be done at the hospital as the doctor's office said they would be open on Sunday, 48 hours after the first test. So after dropping James off at my ILs and having to tell them why...we get there to be told that thier lab is not open on Sunday. This after I have to walk through the Birthing Center as they share the same door. It all sucked.

Saturday night I went to bed around 11:30 and got up on Sunday morning at 11:48. I was "up" twice before that. But fell right back to sleep and slept until then. I guess I needed it. Jimmy was the sweetest thing ever through it all. Putting up with my insanity and mood swings and tears. He was strong and supportive and sweet. And I love him even more for it. I know it was hard for him too. But he was there for me as he knew I needed it. We did some therapy shopping for the house and he brought me for frequent sundaes at Friendly's. I wasn't always friendly myself. But he brought out my smile as often as he could find it. I swear everything this weekend was pregnant woman and babies. Even Star Trek...really?

Epic fail turns to epic moment...

So yesterday morning I got up and it was CD30 for me. Longer than any cycle before. So I took a cheapie test and I swore I saw a line. But it was so faint and only if I held it the right way in the right light. So I tried taking a picture and failed at that as well. So after succeeding at only making myself late I gave up and put it to the back of my head. Bought a digital test last night. Called DO OVER before bed and started over this morning. My temp was alittle lower than it had been, but I trudged forward and tested anyway. And it came up YES!! I can't believe it. I still don't want to believe my eyes. I haven't told Jimmy yet. I'm waiting till tomorrow night so that James isn't around as I think we should wait a little to tell him and I want to tell him alone. Tonight I have dinner with my sister, Mom and Pop...so tomorrow night it is. It's killing me not telling him and my sister I was talking to and the one I'll see tonight and on and on. I can't believe that I put it on a message board and my blog before anyone else. But it's still so not real!

I have my shirt in the closet that says Knocked Up. So I'll put it on before Jimmy gets home tomorrow and see how long it takes him to realize what it says! I can't wait for him to know!!

House work...

Jimmy and I put in laminate floors this weekend. We are doing all the carpet in the house (all three bedrooms and formal living room as well as hallways) but we started with our bedroom. Mostly because we had just switched James bedroom and set it all up and Jimmy was not psyched about moving all his furniture again. There is a rather large desk in the office that we wanted to avoid for at least a little bit. So here are some pics. The one is the carpet then some of the completed floor. He does such good work :)

Locks of Love

So I cut my hair off and donated it to Locks of Love. I'm so excited that my hair is going to become a wig for some kid. I just love that :) It's a tad shorter than I would have cared for, but it will grow and get to that length and be great. Tonight Jimmy and I are getting a couples massage. I'm so excited. Then tomorrow we start laying our laminate wood floors. Getting rid of all the carpet in the house is going to be awesome. And so much easier to clean. Bonus.


Here's my new cut...the pose is so my sisters could see the watch Jimmy got me...

Vegas....

was PERFECT. Everything I had hoped for and more. After being a brat and Jimmy convincing me that we should get up at 3 a.m. when the alarm went off and head out...the Grand Canyon was amazing. We were there so early it was Jimmy, me, God and the Canyon and I was awe struck.

We did all kinds of walking around the strip. Hit almost all the hotels. Usually just walking through and checking them out. But a couple we explored more.

We saw a wonderful Cirque De Soliel show "O" and it was so incredible. There was so much going on and we could not see it all. I had to pee and there was no intermission. 2 hours and no break. I thought I might die :)

On our last day we stopped at Harrah's and gambled. I started out with $40 and Jimmy watching me play Blackjack. After about a 1/2 hour I convinced him to play too. We enjoyed about 2 more hours and walked away with a $200 profit!! And had so much fun.