Hercules

So I got to see Hercules last night. An absolutely perfect, healthy 136 bpm baby is baking in there. I could have watched the heart flutter ALL day. I feel a little more in love. I graduated from my RE's...although I don't see my OB till Week 11...a month. So any issues or concerns in the meantime will be referred to my RE. But I won't be going back there. I am sad as they were an amazing team to work with. But I'm thrilled that it's no longer necessary. I owe them so much, but can't say I will miss them!! Especially the 1.5 hour drive each way. I know Jimmy is thrilled to never have to do that again. I have to remain on my PIO till Week 11. And my baby aspirin as well. I have a 5 mm progesterone cyst. But he said that was normal and it would go away on it's own. I have to make sure I don't twist my middle too much as a result. But going for beach walks (which I had planned on starting this week) ia still okay. I got a little graduation bag and was so proud to walk out with my blue bag :) He did say that I was 6 weeks 5 days at the time of the ultrasound, and not 7 weeks 0 days as I had figured. He said it was normal with IVF to be a little off on dates as the egg can bounce around before implanting. So I am now due December 14th. Sounds like a perfect date to me!! So without further ado...

Animals...

I know it's pregnancy hormomes. I normally ADORE my pets. I love them like my child. I spoil them like crazy. But I tell you...right now...I can NOT stand them. Want to open the door and let them free. Tell Jimmy that they ran away. All of them. They are so annoying. Normally my cat is very sedementary. Not when I am napping, no...that is the best time to run across all the furniture, including whatever I am laying on. He starts crying at 5 a.m. He steals paper whenever he can and makes the worst racket with it. And then thier is the dogs. The male isn't a fan of the new big dogs across the street. So he barks like a nut whenever they make an appearance. Which gets the female going (she's not the best in the sight department so she would most likely miss them on her own :). And my female. Ahh, my female. She is consistant...non-stop. She whines. Perpetually. She huffs as she lays down. She scratchs and actually thumps the floor so that it shakes. She snores. She burps. She barks. And normally all her "quirks" make me laugh. Or at least don't affect me. But I am on the brink. I actually have to wear ear plugs at night because she starts at 5 a.m. or earlier and I think I might kill her. And she will not settle down in the evening. You put her outside and she stares at you to come and bring her in. You bring her in and she walks around and around whining. I want to love them again...but damn...they are making it REALLY tough on a girl.

Inpatience

So my RE waits F.O.R.E.V.E.R. to do the first u/s. Not sure of the reasoning behind his, but it is KILLING me. Everyone else I know, even some who are not as far along as me, have already gotten to see there miracles. And here I still sit waiting. I want to see Hercules. I am dying. Pretty please Doc...pretty please? One more week...one more week.

Confession

I'm wearing maternity jeans. I know I am only 5 weeks 2 days pregnant. But I gained 15 lbs. during my IUI/IVF cycles as a result of the stims...shots...meds...all of the above :) And I've been bloated throughout that. Now I have pregnancy bloat. So jeans and/or dress pants have been off the table for awhile. Been wearing alot of dresses and elastic waisted pants. So I decided to buy me some maternity jeans/pants. And let me tell you I love, love, love them. It is so nice to be back in "real" pants. To feel like I actually got dressed. Here's my exchange with Jimmy, "You're wearing jeans?" "Yup" "New jeans?" "Yup" "But they don't look big" "Nope, maternity"...and no one has to know!! They look like normal, every day jeans if you don't lift my shirt and see the band. Have I mentioned that I love, love, love them? Cause I do. Alot. I ordered another pair today. And might have a third one by the end of the week. We'll see. I'll still wear my dresses, and I have a couple of pants that don't look like elastic waisted pants. So I'll keep wearing them...but it's nice to feel like an adult in "normal" clothes again. I didn't realize how much I missed it. So judge if you must...but I am thrilled to be wearing maternity already!!

Ultrasound

My first gestational ultrasound is April 25th at 2:45 p.m. I can not wait to see Hercules!!

Beta #2

Another great number...1154...more than double in 48 hours. Hercules is growing strong. I can't believe it. Jimmy is so excited he took me around looking at baby furniture. We have our gestrational u/s the last week of April. I can not wait to see the baby on the screen!!

Beta #1

536!! I am so flipping excited. It's real :) I'm pregnant. I have waited 38 1/2 years for this. I truly had started to believe that it would never happen. And now it has. I'm pregnant!! And with that number, the first comment out of many that knows mouths is multiples. Jimmy goes pale at the thought. I don't care either way. Just want healthy baby(s). It is so cute how excited Jimmy is. He has already started figuring out how to change the spare bedroom into a nursery. Going on-line to look at wall murals and such. He is insisting on calling me Big Mama. But you know what...I don't care. Because, guess what...I'm pregnant!!

Timidly...

I say to you...I am pregnant. I took a digital HPT and it said the word I have prayed so hard for...PREGNANT. I went and put it on the towel in the bathroom for Jimmy to see when he got out of the shower. He said when he saw the stick and not me he figured it was bad. He had to look at it several times before it hit him. I personally have looked at the damn thing 15+ times this morning. I honestly think expecting the NOT to show up. Normal people take a test and it says pregnant and that's it. They're pregnant. I think when you've experienced IF it's a little harder to accept that word. I'm almost afraid to believe it. And after two early miscarriages, I'm terrified to get excited about it. Jimmy wants to tell everyone right.away. Not even waiting till the beta on Thursday. He says the digital is accurate. That we can believe it. That we are pregnant. Holy shit...I'm pregnant!! Maybe it will sink in today...but I don't think so. Maybe after the beta. Maybe. ::claps hands:: Hercules, Hercules, Hercules!!